Cycle #2 here I come.  I'm on CD 4 and I'm already not sure how I feel about it.

Wow, so it turns out I'm pretty sure I had another miscarriage.  I didn't even know I was pregnant and the tests kept coming back positive, but my temps stayed high and it was 22 days from ovulation to period.  And then today just kind of confirmed it for me.  It was just like last time only it hurt less.  I would have been 6 weeks yesterday.  I fin it oddly comforting that we didn't know for all of it, but I also feel sad for the baby because we didn't know it was there to love.  But I know I have 2 babies waiting for me in heaven now.  I don't care what the tests say.  I know what was happening with my body.  I should have trusted my gut, but in this case it wouldn't really have made a difference.  I start my new cycle Saturday night.  I'm really anxious.  If every pregnancy I have ends up in lose I don't know if I can handle that.  But I'm taking it one day at a time and trusting God to help carry me through it.

I'm sitting here in the drs office waiting for her to come in. I started my period so were back to square one. I've only been back for one cycle and I'm already sick of the roller coaster. I told Brian I'm not sure how much more I can take. But I know and believe and trust that this will all be worth it in the end. Results to come. I feel like I might have a cyst...

Ok, here's some catch up...  It's 21 DPO and i have yet to start my period and I've taken 4 negative pregnancy tests since last Wednesday (and my temps have actually continued to stay high even up to this morning!)  I have no idea what's happening.  I've been on the progesterone for 22 days now and if I'm not pregnant it's supposed to force a period 10-14 days from starting it.  And I have had NO period!!  It's the worst :(  I wish something would just happen.  I've never had a clomid cycle take this long.  Or be so confusing.  My periods always come normal whether I ovulate in the cycle or not.  Who knows.  If it doesn't start this week I'll call my doctor and see what she says.  I'm eager to start again.  I'm just hoping nothing is wrong.

6 more days.  It's killing me!!!

I'm in my 2ww and I remember how bad this wait sucks now :(  I ovulated pretty late in the cycle, so I had give up and started my progesterone a few days before I ended up ovulating.  I'm really hoping we didn't miss it because I ovulated sometime Tuesday or Wednesday and the last time we BD was Sunday night.  It ended up being around CD 22 or something.  And I only know because I randomly decided to take my temp on Wednesday morning and it had sky rocketed.  So it was sometime between when I took my temp Monday morning and Wednesday morning.  So if we do get pregnant I feel like it for sure has to be a girl.  12 days left and I can take a test if my period hasn't started.  I'm also a little worried that the progesterone I took for the 2 or 3 days before I ovulated will mess something up, but if I ovulated anyways I guess nothing else could be affected.  Who knows.  Maybe it was a mixture of the perfect storm for a little baby to be made and grow.  I hope so!!  This will be a long 2 weeks.