Alright, it's CD 16 and I have yet to ovulate or get a positive test, but I know I have eggies in there because I saw them at my appt on Monday.  I had 2 goods one on the left and one on the right.  I actually ran out of ovulator predictors so I'm just going to keep taking my temp and see if i end up ovulating.  We're pretty much doing the BD everyday regardless just to be safe, so I figure it doesn't really matter at this point.  I start my progesterone on Sunday night, so I'm hoping my temps indicate ovulation before that.  It'll be really frustrating if I had so many good follicles and none of them even ovulate.  But what can a girl do?  If that's the case we'll opt for the shot next time that makes me ovulate.  But I figured we'd be ok in that area since the last time I did a cycle and had good follicles I ovulated on my own and got pregnant.  Time will tell...  I'm getting really nervous though.  I know it's just our first cycle back but I hate all these hormones and I really don't want to do it again.  I will, don't get me wrong!  I just don't want to.  But whatever sacrifices I make now will all be worth it in the end when I'm (hopefully) holding my baby in my arm.  Until then it's just sad.  And I hate waiting.

I'm back.  It has been a long and very much needed break, but I'm finally ready to keep going on this crazy ride.  Last month we decided to go ahead and try again, so I went to the Dr on my day 3 and of all things there was a cyst!  So she said to give it another month and come back.  So we went back this last Friday and everything looked great.  I started Friday night and I'm on day 4 of the Clomid and day 7 of my cycle.  So far, I can't really remember if it's like last time yet or not, but I figure once i get on the estrogen the emotions will come flooding.  The 150 mg dose worked for us last time so the Dr said she would start us there again, even though it had been so long since I'd been on anything.  I'm really hopeful, but I'm also thinking that since it's just the first cycle, even at the high dose again, my body might take a time or two to get up to speed.  But we'll see.  It's still really weird to be getting into this stuff again.

Our due date was in June and I actually had a harder time with it than i thought I would.  Plus I had to go t a wedding that day and watch people be happy and hopeful for the future and something inside me just snapped.  But my husband is amazing and he went into the bathroom with me and just let me cry and cry.  I can't imagine coming to that time next year and still not even being pregnant yet.

My follow up appt to see if any follicles grew is next Monday.  Cross your fingers!