2ww...

I can't believe I'm in a 2ww!!!!!  It's the first one I've ever been in that I actually knew for sure was a legit wait.  On Monday I had a Dr's appointment to see if I had any egg's growing, which was CD 12, and they found one egg on my left ovary that measured in at just under 16 mm.  The NP wanted to see if it grew any bigger for dosage reasons in the next cycle in case it didn't work this time, so I went in again Thursday to check it again, which was CD 15.  The Dr. had a hard time seeing what the assistant had seen on Monday so he brought her in the see if she could find it again.  She looked and couldn't find it either.  I was starting to lose hope that she had seen it right on Monday, but they found the follicle.  It was a lot smaller and more oval shaped then before, but the Dr said that meant that I had ovulated it, and probably just recently because he could see fluid leaking out of the follicle still.  So that means I ovulated for sure on my own!!!!  We went home and BD one last time after the appointment (plus, what husband wouldn't want a midday quickie : ) ), but I'm pretty sure it didn't really make it.  So now I'm just waiting.  I start progesterone on Sunday night and I take it until I either start my period or get a BFP.  So in 2 weeks I test and know if I need to start over or get really excited!  My first 2ww!  I actually like this part more so far compared to  waiting to see if anything happened from the Clomid.  I feel like ovulation and the egg alone were success, and I'm hoping if I have to do multiple cycles of this my body responds to the low dose the same way.  It's so weird to think that in 2 weeks I could find out that my life might be changing forever.  But I'm so excited and I need the change!!  Come on life, bring it on!~

Clomid #1

So I'm done with my first round of Clomid!  And it makes me feel so productive.  :)  Today was CD 12 and I we went in for or u/s.  I have one egg on my right ovary that measures in at 16 mm.  I'm going back in Thursday afternoon to see if it has gotten any bigger so that if I don't get pregnant this cycle they'll know if thy need to increase my dosage for next time.  I'm feeling very hopeful and excited!  There is success alone in the fact that my body actually grew an egg!!!  Even if I don't get pregnant it's success for me.  Strange how small things can seem like such big steps forward.  No bad side effects as of yet.  Brian says he's noticed that my high's and low's are a little more noticeable, but other than that I feel normal.  I'm hoping 50 mg's is enough because I sense that my mood would drastically worsen on a stronger dosage.  I'm crossing my fingers!  BUt so far so good.  Still hopeful, which for me is the important thing.  I'm a little nervous about the next appointment though.  We've been seeing the assistant and she's not available on Thursday, so we have to see the main Dr.  But he's a man.  And I know I'll get over it, but there's hasn't been a man down there other than my husband, like, ever!  So it'll be a new experience for me.  And I hope he's nice.  Wish me luck with my little egg!

I'm officially on the infertility treatment plan.  After I saw my doctor before my HSG, she said to call her when I started my period so that they could do an U/S to see if I have any cysts and start on Clomid.  Of course this cycle chooses to go extra long with multiple negative tests, so I finally called and asked for a referral for blood work and permission to start on progesterone if it ended up being negative also.  Thy said fine, the test was negative and I started my Prometrium.  After only 2 days my period finally decides to show so I scheduled an appointment for today to to do my tests.  Everything checked out clear so she wrote me up for 50 mgs of Clomid to start tomorrow.  I go in again the 26th for my follie scan and then see how it's going.  I'm hoping this can just hurry up and be it, but I know it could take all the way up to the full 6 cycles and then not even then possibly.  Which would suck!!  But it'll all be worth it in the end.

It feels good to be doing something.  That alone makes me feel more hopeful in general.  Just that we'll even have a chance is exciting to me!  And I think this would be such an ideal time to get pregnant.  Summers halfway over and I'd be my biggest in the spring when the weathers still nice.  But a baby who wants to come at any time would be welcomed!