I'm feeling very hopeful.  Because we've ever really tried before, I'm not sure what I should be feeling right now.  I had a lot of cramps today and felt gassy, which seems like something that goes with the first few weeks of pregnancy.  So we'll see.  I O'd somewhere around Sunday or Monday maybe, because my test showed a positive pink line as early as Friday morning.  We Friday, Sat, and Sun and he went out of town on Monday.  Seems like a good amount.  I predict my period will start around next Sat maybe, so if I go past that much I'll take a test and see what it says.  Hopefully we'll have a positive.  I know the chances are slim with it being the first ever time trying and all, but you never know.  Some of the other blogs I read leave me thinking there;s no chance ever!  But I have to be positive and maybe manifest a little that it will happen.  I will be pregnant!  Maybe.  Someday. Who knows?

Moving!

We' re getting so close to our move in date!  I feel so cramped in our little apartment.  It's been 2 years of 400 sq. feet and I'm am ready!  I think moving is part of the reason Brian feels more ready for a baby.  More space equals bigger family I guess.  Which is fine by me!  I'm ready!  This cycle coming up is the first one that we'll really be trying for, and I'm not sure how I'll handle it.  When I read other people's feelings about it it seems so stressful and disappointing.  I don't want it to start to rule my life but I have a feeling I won't have a choice.  I'm nervous to see how I do react to trying on the right days at the right time and not getting pregnant still.  And how many months of that can I take?  I've been taking my ov tests every morning and even though everyone ovulates at different times, it's for sure too early for anyone.  I only ended my period 3 days ago.  So I've got awhile till I see the bright little pink line.  I've been taking my temp every morning at the same time.  I'm curious to see how it all correlates and if I can predict when I'm ovulation from now on based on my temp.  I bought a little dress this weekend.  It makes me feel like something is more real.  I can't help it.  I already have a fairly large collection of stuff that I'll use for my baby.  Maybe I should stop.

Over

My period just ended so I think we're gonna start going for it.  I'm really hoping that it happens quickly because I'm not very good at waiting.  No patience for me.  Once I'm pregnant I have a feeling that I'll want it to last forever.  I can wait for the baby as long as I know its really in there.  I have been seeing pregnant women everywhere lately.  It must be in the air.  I asked my teacher if being pregnant would affect school and giving massages, but she said it would be fine.  That was what I was really worried about.  I need to be able to receive massages, but I can still do prenatal once I'm past my first trimester.  I can't wait to be able to get massages though.  A lot of women aren't able to get that kind of  physical relief.  I only have 5 more months of school, so I'd only get a month or 2 max of massages until I am out of school and having to pay for it.  I can't really massage myself.  I could probably teach Brian though.  I just want it to happen so bad!