I can't believe my sweet little boy is almost 18 weeks.  It feels like every day is going so slow, but the weeks are going by so fast.  We haven't even started getting ready at all and he'll be here before we know it!  We had our 4D ultrasound on Saturday and our parents got to come and see him with us.  He still looks tiny and not at all ready to come into the world obviously, but it made me just that much more anxious to meet him and hold him and kiss all over him!  No matter how far we get, I'll always have the fear in the back of my mind that he still can get taken away from me.  I try not to think about it, but for anyone who's gone through infertility I think they can understand.  It's just so much disappointment and so even when something good finally happens, that expectation for something bad to happen is still there.  The thought that this can't possibly be happening to me.  But everyday I let myself love this little boy more and more.  It's scary and exciting all at once.  Brian got to feel him kick the other night.  He put his ear to my belly where I was feeling it and without me telling him, he could pick out the kicks from just the general moving.  It was the neatest thing I've ever felt.  And I'm so glad that he's able to be such a physical part of this so early on.  The tech said I have a posterior placenta, so that's probably why I can feel him so much already.  I love feeling him.  I'll be sad when he's not in there anymore for me to always have with me.  But I'd much rather have him out and in my arms :)  We have our 20 week ultrasound on Wednesday.  We're doing it at 18, but the doctor said that was fine.  So we'll know if he's healthy and air everything's going how it should by Friday.  I can't wait to see him again!

I forgot to upload these!   They're from a just for fun scan I did on Monday :)  The face is kinda scary looking, but I know he'll be cute when he comes out!

I'm 16 weeks today and it is going really great so far!  I've been feeling the baby move since 14 weeks and I love it!  I had an ultrasound for fun at 14 1/2 weeks at work and we found out we're having a little boy!!  We both wanted a boy first so we're super excited :) I'm still losing weight but my belly is growing and the doctor doesn't seem worried at all.  So hopefully I actually start seeing some weight gain soon.  I've been sleeping not very well.  Part of it I'm sure is that I just can't seem to turn my mind off.  I feel like there's a million things I need and want to do, but we're not really far enough for me to justify doing anything.  I figure at our 20 week mark I'll feel more ready.  We're moving so the baby will actually have his own room that I can put things in and get ready.  I'm just still in disbelief that this is happening to me.  It's amazing and I love seeing and feeling the changes in my body as it gets further.  He's already a very active little boy, and always measures bigger then he is.  So we may have him before our due date which I wouldn't mind at all! But he can stay in there as long as he wants.  I won't kick him out :) Ok, I need to go eat!