I'll be 14 weeks on Wednesday!  I honestly never thought I'd get to this point.  It's amazing and crazy and scary and nerve wracking all at the same time.  I'm getting to that point where I'm admitting to myself that it's really going to happen.  It took awhile, but I see my baby as a baby now.  Which I love!!  We've been lucky and had several ultrasounds, and some girls at whorl scanned me twice.  The baby moves around so much and I'm pretty sure at our 12 week scan we saw some little boy parts.  Our doctor wouldn't say anything, but there was definitely something there, regardless of what it is lol. I'm hoping for a boy so maybe it was just my wishful thinking.

I'm feeling way better than I did a few weeks ago.  From 4 weeks till right after 12 weeks I was sick all the time and so SO tired!  I'm still tired but some of my energy's back and I can feel my appetite coming back.  I lost around 5 pounds the between 4 and 12 weeks, and put it all back on in the last 2.  My chest has been tender but not painful, and it seems like they're finally starting to grow!  Which I'm very happy about.  And because I haven't really gained any weight everything is showing pretty much only in my tummy.  I woke up a few days before 13 weeks and it was just there.  I'm in maternity clothes all the time now which are super comfy and have made my life so much better!  I can't wait until I'm at that point where I'm obviously pregnant though.  I'm still stuck in that stage where I could or could not be and people would be afraid to ask.  I think I'm only a few weeks away from that though.  It seems to be sticking out more and more now.

And in 3 1/2 weeks we find out if it's a boy or girl!  I scheduled a 4D ultrasound and our parents are going to come with us and find out too.  I'm excited to see the baby again and for all of our parents to see.  It's really the most amazing thing I've ever seen.  Especially in 4D.  It's going to be so weird to see its face and all of the details of its body.  I can't wait!!

I finally have a massage scheduled with my friend for Thursday.  I am in serious need of one.  My back has been hurting so bad and I haven't been sleeping very well.  But I'm going to see my friend once a week so I'm hoping that it helps.  It should, or at least make me more relaxed.  I've been beyond irritable lately.  And I can see it just getting worse as I get more and more uncomfortable.  But you never know.  :)

It's been a little while but things are still going really well! There's only one baby now, which is fine, and it's big and healthy and measuring a day further than we are. I had my third appt today and got to see the baby! It had arms and legs and we could even see it moving around and kicking. So crazy! I'm 10 weeks today and we go back in 2 weeks just to keep an eye out hat the baby we lost is doing what it's supposed to and not causing any problems for the other baby. So anyways, that's where we're at! I've been really sick the last week. The whole pregnancy I've been sick but it's been worse lately. I'm hoping it means the baby was going through a growth spurt :) ok, more later!