Lilypie Maternity tickers

Lilypie Maternity tickers

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Alright, cycle #2 is quickly coming to an end. I took a test saturday that was negative so I'm anticipating my period anytime now. I definitely feel it coming. And then on to cycle #3. Brian and I have decided that this is gonna be it. I'm not sure if the dr will let me go the full 6 rounds since we started at the highest dose, so whether we do one more or 4 more, this is it. Until maybe a few years down the road. I'm tired of being on all this medicine and spending all this money. My dr has me taking a new prenatal vitamin that is specially broken up already for women who suffer from infertility and it costs am arm and a leg! I'm just done. I wanna get off the metformin before my kidneys are affected too. So by January well be done no matter what. And then it's in the hands of God to heal me or do a miracle or just to prepare our hearts for not having kids. We both feel ready for some kind of end. I hope I get pregnant, but it's not gonna be my end all be all anymore. I can't take it. I wanna be in a better place where I can be excited for other women having babies and celebrate and not feel wanna cry everytime I see a baby or hear that someone I know is pregnant. It's not fun :( so well see... Im not sure where this is gonna lead.