It's the end of my week off and I'm feeling ready to go back to work. I like not working, but I'm tired of just sitting at home and not going anywhere. It'll be nice to finally get out. I'm feeling better about everything. The bleeding has just about stopped, but I still have a lot of cramping whenever I use the bathroom. And if my bladder is full and I have to hold it for any length of time it presses up against my uterus and it just hurts. My mom says it's probably just more sensitive to everything right now because of the pregnancy. It makes me wonder if all women who get pregnant and have babies can feel their uterus at any time for the rest of their lives. Mine is very present. I go in for my final lab work tomorrow and then see my Dr. Tuesday. I asked at the last appt how long I would have to wait for my period to come before I take medicine to help it along and she said 6 weeks. I don't have the best track record with periods coming when they should, so I'm predicting that I'll need the progesterone to get it going. I have tons left over from when I took them while I was pregnant, so I might as well use them at some point. I'm nervous and excited and scared and anxious to start trying again. A big part of me fears that if I get pregnant I'll just miscarry again, and the other part of me doesn't want to believe it could happen to me twice in a row. I'll just have to see how I feel when and if I actually get pregnant again. I didn't trust my feelings during this last pregnancy because everyone said it was bad for the baby to be negative, but I knew what I was feeling. So I'll trust myself to a certain point.
In other news, I really ned a massage! I've had this shooting pain in my neck for the last few days. I usually trade with my friend, but I don't really want to give one. For once I just want to be a receiver. And now that I'm not pregnant anymore I can go get one. So that's at least one positive I guess....
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